Friday, September 29, 2006
EOYs has already began and I presonally feel that it can be something is either you make it or not. Well believe or not, face it or not, thats the way of life. I'm not trying to say that all hopes are dashed if you know that you flaunt the paper but just a reminder that, don't let it affect you too much because.......there is always HOPE.
Today we had English and Chinese paper 1, kinda crappy because for the CL paper, I crapped my way through. Well lets just hope that it works wonder for crapping is good for health too at times?
You know that something, Bridget and I did the same question for the EL paper. Both question 2, hahahha its kind spastic but still its just feels so weird, when Mdm Leong was saying question 2 and the girls went first, only Bridget. After that calling the boys only me, hahahahha its like so funny then the class went wooooooooooo. My face changed.
Well that was only for school times, after school was even worse. We went to self-study but you know what? The 2 damn papers actually manage to kill most of my brains cells soo.......I was merely even studying XDD. I was dead, right after i knew that all my brain cells was saying, Jonathan we are dead so you are on your own XDD.
Well I guess that this is what i shall blog about this time. Kinda tired now and thanks to all my Pillars Of Strength. GOOD LUCK FOR ALL YOUR EOYs AND THAT YOU CAN ALWAYS APPROACH ME FOR ANYTHING. Hahahahah. Take care people and really all the best :))))
where were you when I needed you the most
6:47 AM
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Its not a very fine day today and whatever I may mention can be NOT your business but all I just want is simple comments ya please??
We had normal lessons as usual and that yesterday, there was a very fun trip on a art thingy and it was so fun that I regreted that I did not make it. That was just something that was not that big deal though. Only that missed out alot of fun. Lessons was as normal, just making more fun because, teachers were absent and that we had a bit more time, free time.
After that, we went to the Mac's to have self-study and during the process, something terrible happened to us. Partly out fault, we made alot of noises and that people around us was not happy with us. Guess what they did, there were 4 of them and 2 of them were outside and 2 were inside. They wasted paper by writing on them just to like show to the people outside. That was fine BUT THEY WENT OVERBOARD AND MADE STUPID COMMENTS BY SAYING: "CALL THE POLICE LAH" AND STILL GOT MORE "MUHAHAHAHAH IS THAT GUY A GAY", NOT ONLY THAT "CALL 999 ANYWAYS ITS JUST FREE". ALL THIS COMMENTS MADE US SO FLARED UP AND WE DECIDED TO PLAY ALONG.
We also had our means by also saying that "OH I AM A GAY WITH 9 BALLS", "YOU THINK WHAT, JUST BECAUSE I APPEAR LIKE THAT DOES NOT MEAN I AM LIKE THAT RIGHT, WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, WHAT RIGHTS DO YOU EVEN HAVE TO SCOLD ME A GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I could not take it anymore, do I really deserve such comments, or should it be another thinking like "hmmm, maybe this guy is flirting, hahha" You know what, these kinds of comments just won't, NEVER WILL IT. I really want to know from all of you people reading this post. Do you really think that I am gay, sisi, ah gua or even what a girl?? I really can't take this anymore, I don't want you people to deceive me, I just cannot stand all this anymore. My life is already in a very terrible state and adding on to the burdens is everywhere I go, people whom I don't even know is actually scolding me like that. Is this really what I am, or is this just an illusion that I have created??????
I really don't wish to say anymore, I cannnot take this anymore, maybe on the next moment you will just see me banging my head on the wall. Slashing my wrist for no reason. I want to thank those who have done alot for me but there are some things that I need time because this is just too much to take. Pillars of strength, I need your help now, will I ever get out of this maze????????????
where were you when I needed you the most
6:12 AM
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Saturday, September 23, 2006
Okay this is not cool because that EOYs are getting nearer and nearer by the moment. Guess what, I am not prepared for it ahhhhhhh. Hahahaah. Of course not, duh, I am like giving myself alot of time for self-studying such that time spend for blogging was reduced. Sad ya?
Yes, on Friday, I was having C.I.P with 2B and Amanda too. It started like 4PM and we were supposed to gather at the school canteen. Amanda and I was like wanting to board the 2B's bus but we could not but instead we managed to get in the bus after the event. Hahahahaa, was kinda fun as a had singing session with them during the ride back school. Yes and also not forgetting that the organiser's son is actually............Duan Jin. Suprised huh? I was so shocked and i went saying that "ahhh I am standing beside the organiser's son ahhhhhhh." That was like nuts you know, and went on poking him all the way, hahhahahahaahahhaahah.
We did not really did anything much actually, more like being a very "enthu" audience. If i remembered clearly that we were supposed to give out the goody bags but turned out that we did not do. Hmmmm, guess maybe there was error going on.
That was for Friday and on Saturday which is today, we had self-studying again. From Mac'Donald all the way to Seng Kang's library and KFC. Weird huh? Shi Hui, Bridget and I was suppose to have it at Kovan's Mac but turned out that there were people there and they decided to ask us to join them going to the Seng Kang. So we joined them and did managed to do some work and things done. Not that bad but was not what it was suppose to be. Well, life is not always what you expect it to be.
Yes and I guess that this is all that I am going to blog about and that EOYs are coming soon. I wish for everyone to to score well and pass with flying colours. Thanks alot Pillars Of Strength that you are there always. THANKS ALOT PEOPLE AND TAKE CARE AND SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS BYE AND TAKE CARE :))))
where were you when I needed you the most
5:46 AM
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
it is very stressed up that I am now facing the terrible part of being a secondary school student. All of us are now trying their best to prepare themselves for the EOYs. You can PLUCK off your hair even just to think of something that is actually so simple, after knowing the method. Nuts ya?
Haven been blogging nowadays because I was lots and lots of self-studying these days. For the Past 2 days, I was doing revision at Mac's and with different people of course I think but more or less its about the same though. On Monday was with Shi Hui, Bridget, Kuan Hon, and somemore I think. Hahaha. Today was with Shi Hui, Lizhen, Kuan Hon, Ching Keong and of course myself.
We also had Home Econ today and it was our practical and everything went sort of smoothly?? Hahahaha I doubt so, anyways nothing really went wrong thought XD. Every group had their own specialties. They even had sushi ahhhh. Thats like so cool right? Hahaha.
So I guess that that this is all that i wanna blog about and don't expect to see much of my post these days because I will not be blogging that frequent as always because of EOYs. So TAKE CARE PEOPLE AND SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS PLEASE. HAHAHAHAHAHAH BYE AND SEE YA :)))
where were you when I needed you the most
7:13 AM
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Saturday, September 16, 2006
Exams are approaching and i feel that i am not even satisfied with my CA2. Reason because I haven even got back my Science Paper!!!!!! Its very irritating as i don't even know what is my score, so how do you expect me to work hard for for this subject?
ok now as you can see right that everyone is working hard for the EOY exams, which makes me more tense and tense each seconds passes by. Also not forgetting that we haven got back our result slip and because of the Science paper delaying it. I can't really say its Mr Tay Tien Kiat's fault but indirectly he has a part to play in this situation.
Hearing from Cheng Lei that there will be teachers teaching us Science for the up-coming week because Mr Tay is still unable to attend lessons next week. I can't believe I will be saying this but Mr Tay please get well because we do not want other teacher(s) to take over us as you were our teacher since the start of the year. Also thinking that you are "ill-free" but sadly, you are still a human so can't be blame huh?
Today was kinda normal only that I had to go back school because of recording but you know what? Nothing was accomplished because Mr Micheal Sim is not around and we couldn't get the recording done at all which is heart breaking. Hahahahaha not really breaking but could not get our SEXY NICE voice recorded wahahahaha.
After that I went back to my father's house to visit him and my bro too but when I reach there, my brother was sleeping with his room door locked and my father was not at home so could do nothing at all, again.
Feeling lost that nothing was done today so I came back home and took a bathe which after I switch the computer to use. Right now blogging again and with a new style or writing, I hope that everything will go well for the up-coming week because EOY is nearer as i type now.
Thanks alot my pillars of strength for being there as you would be. Lets really hope that nothing would crop up. With no "hiccups" at all lets go through the week happily hahaha. Thanks alot people for reading and BYE TAKE CARE AND SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS. wahahahahaha :))))
where were you when I needed you the most
4:19 AM
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
Mr Tay Tien Kiat is still not back and he is really getting on our nerves....though it is very quiet and still its kinda annoying that he still have not return our paper....its also kinda amazing that he is MC for like 4days now.....Back To the Story...All of a sudden...cheng-ly woke up from his terrible nightmare that he dreamt just now. Must be the spells the his friends casted on him. He quickly get out of the bed and quickly prepared himself for school that he is attending Magic SchoolAlong with his fellow Magical friends...he went to the school together using the magic broom. They all flew with much joy but never they knew that someone was lurking in the dark spying at them.He met with all of his close friends, rachel-ly, jonathan-ly, stella-ly, boon-ly, xian-ly, huda-ly, karina-ly. They all soon went to their classes for the Magic lessons.....thanks to all of my pillars of strength and the story will continues....hahah anyways....THANKS PEOPLE and TAKE CARE AND SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS...BYE hahah nothing much for today.....hahaha BYE PEOPLE and thanks for reading me post for today.....:))
where were you when I needed you the most
6:32 AM
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
well...its really been a short yet hectic day...The family of 5...cheng-ly was like so frustrated that he could not get his work done at all....and his brothers xian-ly and jonathan-ly was like getting on his nerves and he was so pissed off with him....and his sisters rachel-ly and karina-ly was like so naggy all the way about not cleaning the house...and cheng-ly got so FLARED up and he leave home...his brothers and sisters could not care more about him at all.....and cheng-ly did what he thinks best and you know what after knowing that cheng-ly left home....karina-ly mouth was filled with FOAM and she fainted....rachel-ly for no reason BANG the wall with her head and soon had blood on her face...xian-ly could not say anything due to the shocked..and jonathan-ly was like....he went NUTS and jump down the 2nd floor stairs to the first floor.....and everything was in a mess....and huda-ly and stella-ly their neighbours had to call the police for the 5th time in a day....the family of 5-lys will continue as life goes on...and thanks to all of my pillars of strength....and we shall look forward for tomorrow...and something happened that i got a feeling that someone from the board will get sacked but lets just hope t hat only those slacky ones would....anyways TAKE CARE PEOPLE AND LOOK OUT FOR MORE OF THE FAMILY OF 5-LYs......thanks people...BYE :)))
where were you when I needed you the most
6:06 AM
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
yupp...MSN is back..hahah and thats wonderful...because we can all chat again..hahahahaha and thats cool ok....well you know today stilll not that happy because Mr Tay Tien Kiat is still not back in school and that we can't get back our science paper.....i hate it man....its like so dragging......again and again....*sigh*well.....something done today was that our 2nd meeting for the carnival was held again.....and also talking about that i remembered that Mr Teo Siang Yang is also not in school...hmmm i guess that he is on course if i'm not mistaken.....well....what to do anyways....today was kinda same as always nothing much to really say about just that was SO DAMN FUNNY when we were together....karina...rachel....huda.....cheng lei...and of course myself...hahahahaha...well it was like so damn hell funny man...but of course we did something more serious other than FUN FUN FUN....we talked about something IMPORTANT....and i guess that in time...you people will realised that.....i guess that i really am not good in blogging maybe because i'm kinda LAZY...hahaha and that i don't really like to chat THAT much in my blog..haha i guess i will change and next time i will chat until so DAMN long..hahahahah....anyways....thanks alot people...my pillars of strength.....and that we will and MUST have a fun time together...because thats what life is about....hahaha...and THANKS REALLY ALOT....TAKE CARE PEOPLE......BYE AND SEE YA........:))))))
where were you when I needed you the most
5:35 AM
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Monday, September 11, 2006
YEAH....school has re-open...haha thats kinda cool and that life will resume....hahah but still nothing much going on...no events no nothing.....well i guess maybe it will take some time....today again Mr Tay Tien Kiat did not come to school...well it can be a good thing BUT our science paper is still not given out because of him....so we want him back...just for our papers....hahahahaha so evil...oopsanyways...after school there was nothing on...which is surprising.....was suppose to have Maths lessons...but in the end was cancelled...hahaha....and after that i went to boon kiat's house...after that i went back to school to meet up with my CO friends.....and after that went back home....hmmm...SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH THE MSN...and i hope it quickly gets back...cause i wanna use MSN....hahaha anyways thanks too all of my pillars of strength.....hahah and see ya in school tomorrow....will be hoping for a better time in school with all of you..TAKE CARE..SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS....BYE :))
where were you when I needed you the most
7:13 AM
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
well...i'm now blogging at the very last day of the holidays....and which means that it marks the start of MORE HARD WORK AND MORE HOMEWORK...haha anyways i will be prepared to face it...i hope...hahhahawell....its been a long day for me...my phone was switch off for like that whole day...and so many messages were sent to me.....well can't be blame huh....sad...but as always life do continues with or without the handphone..haha....yup...i spent my last 2 days at my COUSIN'S house and not my father's house...that i said i would be at.....quite a surprised huh....hahhahaokay i guess that i should end my blog for today and i will be looking for school re-opening.....which is tomorrow....the start of the day would be morning LA....haha thanks to all of my pillars of strength...and that we would have happy times in school....okay BYE people....TAKE CARE AND SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS....fading away........BYE :))
where were you when I needed you the most
6:58 AM
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
its kinda weird and mixed feeling...because school is reopening yet i don't wish to go back school...because of studies BUT i also want to back because of MY FRIENDS...and pillars of strength....wahahahahahahahahahha...you know i wonder how all of you feel about school reopening though...
okay its way far beyond to think about how you guys feel...and that we should just be happy for whatever events there maybe...i guess thats all i can say....its a saturday and i am about to spend my last few days of my holidays at my father's house....which means only spending like 2 days??....haha yup just 2 days...but you know...alot can happen in just 2 days....
HOMEWORK to be done...which makes me feel so tired...*sigh*...amybe because of the long stop of work...thats why its making me feel so tired and LAZY to do anything else...
oh well....i guess that this is all i want to say in this post...and be sure that once school reopen...more and more post are sure to come by...hahaha...hmmm i'm wondering what rachel and nitish is doing now...ahahaha..anyways thanks to all my pillars of strength...and that we shall have a fun time together......OK TAKE CARE PEOPLE AND SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS.....BYE :)))
where were you when I needed you the most
4:08 AM
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
well...its not really what i thought it would be...
remember that i said that my father bought 2 pair of nike shoes...well actually its not really nike shoes...well one pair was while the other was timblelake brand....the shoess still is cool...but wasn't what i thought it would be....
well..i cannot blame him for not getting what i want because in the first place i should already be happy that i got these shoes anyways i am still contented that i got more shoes to wear...hahahahahahahaha
yup...other than that....i am really TOUCHED by what chenglei said to me that...in his blog....i was so TOUCHED....really and i am glad that ihave a friend like him...and a pillar of strength like him...
i wanted to to be like him..as in i am already like him..just that i got no one to talk to like that way...hahahaha i mean now i am happy now and that i will still help people in whatever ways that i can..so anyone that needs help can always approach me..i will be there for you..hahaha
well....i guess that there are so many people that concerns about me...DUH..ahahaha well i already knew that a long time ago...but once a person in depressed...he/she can't help thinking in certain ways....anyway i am really proud that i have friends like all of you.....THANKS TO ALL OF MY PILLAR OF STRENGTH...I AM REALLY GRATEFUL YOU....PEOPLE...and in future you people need help from me...you can always approach me..i will and i must do my best to help all of you...okay thanks alot and BYE PEOPLE AND SMILE MORE AND ALAWYS....thanks
where were you when I needed you the most
11:20 PM
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yup...it feels quite weird when you ARE having holiday but the problem is....the kind of holiday that you are leading is not so "holiday"...funny right???...yup i am feeling this way and its kinda weird and funny feeling you know......cannot explain...you have to experience it yourself...okay its Tuesday today am i am blogging once again....and something NICE TO HEAR....that i got 2 pair of NIKE shoes...hahah and a pair on jeans that my father bought for me...haha and i am going to retreive it tomorrow...hahah will be soooo happpy man...hahahah well thats good news for me of course....i had my workshop today about the NEA(National Environment Agency)...well something that Mr Sim wants us to go to....in regards to a certain events.......anyway......when the time is right....you guys will know what is it for....hahahaand not really wishing to mention any un-happenings because i want to be a happy person though they ARE bound to be troubles to apppear as always...you know...it can't be avoided...so you know...anyways...i guess that today's blogging will be here...and thanks alot to my pillar of strength...and i really like all of you to tag and drop by me blog...anyways SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS BECAUSE I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU PEOPLE...hahahaha BYE TAKE CARES.....XDD
where were you when I needed you the most
6:13 AM
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
yup its sunday today and i went to my cousin's house as soon as i woke up....you know....i was really damn tired because of the camp but anyways its all over.....haha....celebrated my cousin's birthday....20 years old now....old le....hahahahhave you ever why is it that humans are so difficult to understand....to me..i felt this way so many times....and have you ever tried to think of your past life???.....its a kinda rumours of legacy that your past life is what you are here today...yourself....and when i almost got the thought of my past life...it flew away as in it was gone....you know...i really wonder what did i do that created the NOW me.....i pondered alot on this for ages......because there can be alot of things that happened to create the Jonathan Toh Chin Yong......which makes me wonder sooooo much......you guys may have the same thinking but for no reason you can never get it.....*sigh*okay....i guess that its time for me to fade away again...and that i would figure out why am i like this.......thanks too all my pillars of strength and that it will be a better future ahead of everyone...TAKE CARE and BYE thank you for reading my blog.....signing off....now....smile more and always :))
where were you when I needed you the most
7:11 AM
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
ITS ALL OVER.......WAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhahah...its really all over...as in my mass camp is over..should be was over right??...haha you know i can say that i enjoyed my time spent over there....was not as BAD as i thought it would be....hahah im back in one piece...as usual...haha besides...there was no life-killing experience....yup...on friday i was hesitating whether the camp was gonna be fun or not....but after the whole camp i knew that it was not all gone to waste....the time and new friends made was all worth it....no doubt that there times that i was not happy with them(NCOs) & (C.Is).....but i guess it all turned out well....i went to fall in and guess what...the early start of the camp and day...i had no group AT ALL....and it i was so furious...that i was SO UNLUCKY.....man the day would turn out even worse...but on the bright side....it was still okay for the days....hmmm i'm not suppose to say this but when they told us to SURRENDER our handphones and valuables....i did not....=X...hahah although i could not really sms or do anything with my phone...at least i did manage to use it...it was a 2day 1night camp and this year was kinda special...no idea why but its that way....you know that the activities this year was kinda less fun as last 's year....i guess i don'y wish to talk ANYTHING about it....only a certain things...hahahayou know that the first day was SO TIRING that the moment we reach the bunks that after like 7mins of talking...all of us fell asleep soundly...hahah and the next day was much better by a bit only...at in the activities were less tiring....lots of things happened...and guess what..there was a girl name called "simon".....and you know what she says....people who are friends of taufiq(2D) are gays(homo)....even nitish.....i was like so wanted to kill her...so i told her that i was HAPPY and no homo...whats your problem...gay=happy not homo....you know it really gets my thinking again that am i really like that....really so gay-ish....just because i was born with a little more female homones....does not mean that i AM a homo.....it really hurts me soo much that people calls me like that.......(cutting of alot of emotional stuff)...........*crying*....do i really deserve this kind of treatment...(after alot of courage)....its all part and parcel of life....and i hope that it will all past away....i want to thank all my pillars of strength....for being there during the camp and people who are tagging my blog to give me more courage to live on in life....its kinda hard but i hope that it will all go AWAY FOR EVER.....thanks to all for reading and i shall now fade away....TAKE CARE people.....BYE :)) SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS
where were you when I needed you the most
8:07 AM
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My life`
Jonathan Toh Chin Yong
Oppotunities will rise for us to shine....=)
Always feeling depressed but yet always someway somehow happy (:
Nevertheless always stay happy yeah?
14'06 years old
15'07 years old
Devotion for [M.E.S]
[Prefectorial Board] // =Student Council Board =D
1A'05( the start of everything )
2A'06( beloved klass x] ) of Yuying Sec
3A'07( A class full of mysteries ) of Yuying Sec
My smile can bring happiness for everyone. You may not agree but I feel so and my fellow friends will or will not agree.
Maybe you may not see the depressed side of me but in actual fact, theres alot of secrets that many of you people might NEVER guess.
No matter what I will always appear as what I am and will always be. "KaiXinGuo" as you may see? Haha nevermind its alright, guess too much of BHB is not good for health.
Especially now, where studies are getting important nowadays. What to do?
I have this particular bestfriend huh, he takes the name of my primary school bestfriend. Named JunYi.
Okay, I shall not elaborate more otherwise people will complain I don't write for them =X
Don't worry P.O.S, you are never forgotten from the start!
It's not easy knowing me man! You can find me happy in the morning. On the other hand, you can find me emo`` in the night!
I can proudly say that I am not a normal person. I'm really SUPER unique! I swear! I can prove you wrong when you know me!
You can never know what I'm thinking off, haha. I have no wish to mention much about my family, it's too complicated though.
You wanna know more about my family and life?
I can share with you my most "wonderful" experiences to you =) Thats all I suppose?
I can really lighten up your life and bring much much more joy you can ever imagine! =)
So like what my bestfriend said, I am so nice to everyone? Hahah!
You probably think it's unbelievable but try knowing me and you'll live to regret when you don't! Hahah!
It will be a chore to know me but I'll simply just rock your life when that is over :D
visit my blog if you want www.ohmyskyy-depressed.blogspot.com
Addicted`
Online Games`
-> MapleStory`
-> Gunbound`
-> Pristontales`
-> 02Jam`
-> Many many more!!!!!`
School Life!!!!! (:`
Being with friends (:`
Allergic`
Dust`
Can't think of any? XD`
E-xams`
Mummy's nagging`
Mugging`
Rumours!`
Falling ill`
Remarks that gets me disgusted!`
Fears`
Being neglected`
Scolded by t'chers
Cockcroaches`
Being lost`
When i am alone`
