Friday, April 27, 2007
This this getting no where. How on earth do you think can take all these S-T-R-E-S-S? I went to jasmine's BLOG and I saw her post on friends. What she said was true. There are friends that you can trust and tell yuor secrets on, but how many are there? 10, 20 or even 30? Will it even reach 10, that means you have tons of BEST friends.I have always wondered that who are really my TRUE friends, that understands me. One that knows when I am feeling angry. One that knows who I am. Honestly, if up to this point of time, you still feel that I am girly, sisi, ah gua, homo and stuff like that, LET ME TELL THI STRAIGHT INTO YOUR FACE, you just don't know me well and FUCK off my life. The reason why I am using the word "FUCK" is because I am sick and tired of listening to all the comments like, "E, so sisi." Maybe something like, "WAH LAO, WHAT KIND OF GUY IS THIS!" The worse situation, "Can you don't be like a sisi? Don't act like a ah gua LEH. This kind of MAN thing also don't dare to do, what MAN are you SIA." I a sick and tired of hearing this, I had enough of it, since I was young, I already started hearing ALL this, my entire life is freaking screwed up now. I admit that I don't do certain things that a "man" should do, as in I am not as open-minded like some people but am I to be blamed for not doing so? Every individual is born unigue, only that I happened to be the less open-minded. Is there a problem with that?I know that these days that my friends around me are hearing me saying vulgars and stuff like that. Let me clarify this, I am really sorry to ALL that I have been scolding all this dirty words here and there, especially in class. I am truly sorry for letting you guys have a wrong impression of me. It will last a period of time, I hope. I am NOW at the verge of breaking down and changing from a happy guy to a guy that everyone will detest. I am really on the verge, just one more push and that is it. I really cannot take it anymore, I even went to the extend of crying in class today, during Chemistry remedial. I was really GONE, I couldn't take it anymore!Once again sorry to ALL that I cried today 27/4/2007. I want all of you to mark this day 26/4/2007, it will be the last day I will ever be slashing myself. Also this is the start where will do anything more crazy then ever. Laughing over something which are totally NOT funny. Doing the crazy staff and who knows, skip school? I know that I will never skip school, it's too ridiculous but I will do something WAY far from imagination.Also 28/4/2007 is the day where I got something new ((: Well tomorow's the day. I hope that whatever vulgars I am using in this post is just to emphasis on the facts. THANKS TO ALL Pillars Of Strength, I know that you are there for me, I need time so please give me more time I ever need and all your strength. Once again thanks too ALL and hope that everythiing will go well for exams. (Just for your info, my English and Chinese Paper 1 was today) TAKE CARE AND SMILE MORE AND ALWAYS !!!!! :))))))))))
where were you when I needed you the most
6:15 AM
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
This is becoming so lag that I cannot really type properly. SO LAG!
MR CHIA, YOU CAME TO MY BLOG HAHAHAH LOL! LAME -_-, THE WHOLE CLASS SAW IT AH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL AH.LOL! This is hilarious ahhs, we we having the boogle thingy for English lessons. All of a sudden, Mr Chia was using the net and we decided to visit people's BLOG. So Yiwei and myself was like sabotaging Boonkiat. =X SORRY Boonkiat. After entering his BLOG, the class saw my link and it was OMG! Mr Chia went in immediately, GOSH! DIE LE! Well, I tried to stop him but it was hopeless. We went to visit many BLOGS =D hahah and had quite an enjoyable time (:
English Paper 1 and Chinese Paper 1 is this coming Friday. This is getting on my nerves. Let me honest, I got so STRESS-ED TODAY that I cut my wrist. It was really TOOO much to take, after school was like HELL! Mdm Amrit, NPCC, Xinghua and Chem quiz. 4things happening at the same time, I was like DUH~who can take it?, if you were me.
Things are really very terrible and I shall post more next time. Got to go now, TO ALL P.O.S, thanks alot for being there for me, well I guess I am going to cut wrist these days, LOL! (I know you may feel it's childish but yeah, for now, to me it's a way of de-stress.) So take care and smile more and always okay? SEE YOU GUYS SOON BYE :)
where were you when I needed you the most
4:45 AM
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
This is is getting SO CRAZZY ! I really cannot take it anymore, too much has happened and MYE are just around the corner. I just can't help but sobbing LOL! To all who are having exams (who doesn't?), STUDY HARD !! There is around 17days from now to the actually core subjects. English starts this up-coming Friday, and for those who can't score, one advice, use whatever your teacher has taught you and go for it !!!
Now let's talk about something that has been way long time over, okay on second thought maybe not. WAIT ! I want to thank ALL people that has given me something on my birthday (: I haven really found a chance to thank you guys, YOU GUYS ROCKS MAN ! Though some presents were kinda not for me BUT still thanks alot !! It's a bit too late but never too late LOL!
I went for Emath remedial, was supposing-ly to meet up with peeps to eat Mac BUT the thing is I couldn't get up in time =X LOL! so I missed my dearest breakfast ='( Mr Toh :) my father LOL! hahah he taught us ALOT and I can conclude something, I learn better on a Saturday because I know that I have nothing on after "school" and that I am much and WAY relaxed. Also Mr Toh is a more suitable for a peer tuitor and not a teacher. No offence Mr Toh :)
History project was like tiring man ! We done but we had to improve it, it suck-ed so yeah. 21 slides *BEAM* what a achievement hahahahahah. -_-||| Nevertheless, the presentation is the important thing!
Let me there you guys 1 more thing, knowing toooooooo much secrets can KILL you, trust me. You will never want to get TOOO involved in people's secret.
I am going to send Taufiq a snail mail soon :) fiq~ wait for my letter :) I SHALL put MUCH pics and write a long letter for you :) wait for me !!!!!! hahahaha
THANKS ALL Pillars Of Strength and hope that all of us can shine for our MYE okay? :) take care and smile more and always AHHHH LOL! BYE and thanks alot for reading my post, blogging soon (:
where were you when I needed you the most
6:27 AM
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Friday, April 13, 2007
WHO SAYS THAT FRIDAY(S) ARE SHORT, AND WHO SAYS THAT FRIDAY THE 13th IS BAD?????Haha, I mean I don't suppose that ALL Friday the 13th is always bad, just that it's always LONG and tiring. As for Fridays that are short, DREAM ON!!!! MY Fridays are like NEVER short. Since when has it ever been how I wanted it to be =,(
However it may be BUT, there is nothing much I can do anyway. Face the reality JONATHAN TOH, your Fridays just has to be like that and accept it. Okok, stpo dwelling on it, I don't wish to talk about it anymore, lets talk about Hongkong People :)
On Wednesday, there was a batch of Hongkong students that came to our school but this batch was for the 3I Project and those that came on thursday was for Mr Tan. They all from Hongkong but it was really different and you couldn't tell they were actually from the same country. It's really difficult to explain but you will just have to experience it yourself.
I really had LOTS of fun =D but I enjoyed more on....... Okay, both fairly fine :) On Wednesday, we had PE lessons that made it more interesting, on Thursday, we were the people who plan for it, not carrying out actions. I really hope to see the 3I HK people soon though, on May, that is. Much fun and also on Friday :) TODAY, I went to RP-Republic Poly for some prize presentation. It ROCK-ED :) because it was with our M.E.S juniors and bonded much.
This is all that I want to post now and hope to see you guys soon :) THANKS TO ALL Pillars Of Strength, also for the last few posts :) SEE YOU GUYS AND take care and smile more and always yeah? Posting much soon, BYE and enjoy your weekends.
where were you when I needed you the most
6:53 AM
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My life`
Jonathan Toh Chin Yong
Oppotunities will rise for us to shine....=)
Always feeling depressed but yet always someway somehow happy (:
Nevertheless always stay happy yeah?
14'06 years old
15'07 years old
Devotion for [M.E.S]
[Prefectorial Board] // =Student Council Board =D
1A'05( the start of everything )
2A'06( beloved klass x] ) of Yuying Sec
3A'07( A class full of mysteries ) of Yuying Sec
My smile can bring happiness for everyone. You may not agree but I feel so and my fellow friends will or will not agree.
Maybe you may not see the depressed side of me but in actual fact, theres alot of secrets that many of you people might NEVER guess.
No matter what I will always appear as what I am and will always be. "KaiXinGuo" as you may see? Haha nevermind its alright, guess too much of BHB is not good for health.
Especially now, where studies are getting important nowadays. What to do?
I have this particular bestfriend huh, he takes the name of my primary school bestfriend. Named JunYi.
Okay, I shall not elaborate more otherwise people will complain I don't write for them =X
Don't worry P.O.S, you are never forgotten from the start!
It's not easy knowing me man! You can find me happy in the morning. On the other hand, you can find me emo`` in the night!
I can proudly say that I am not a normal person. I'm really SUPER unique! I swear! I can prove you wrong when you know me!
You can never know what I'm thinking off, haha. I have no wish to mention much about my family, it's too complicated though.
You wanna know more about my family and life?
I can share with you my most "wonderful" experiences to you =) Thats all I suppose?
I can really lighten up your life and bring much much more joy you can ever imagine! =)
So like what my bestfriend said, I am so nice to everyone? Hahah!
You probably think it's unbelievable but try knowing me and you'll live to regret when you don't! Hahah!
It will be a chore to know me but I'll simply just rock your life when that is over :D
visit my blog if you want www.ohmyskyy-depressed.blogspot.com
Addicted`
Online Games`
-> MapleStory`
-> Gunbound`
-> Pristontales`
-> 02Jam`
-> Many many more!!!!!`
School Life!!!!! (:`
Being with friends (:`
Allergic`
Dust`
Can't think of any? XD`
E-xams`
Mummy's nagging`
Mugging`
Rumours!`
Falling ill`
Remarks that gets me disgusted!`
Fears`
Being neglected`
Scolded by t'chers
Cockcroaches`
Being lost`
When i am alone`
