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because we have been cold

We appreciate light

because we have been in darkness

By the same token

we can experience joy

because we have known sadness

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k0pii-writedd [Jonathan Toh Chin Yong]

Friday, June 29, 2007

This is WORK WORK WORK all day long....very tired and really exhaust-ed. This whole week I have been missing 2entire days of lessons >.< =)

Joy and fun was one thing, apart from that, I was more proud that pwesiddent and headpwefect did a great job? In a short time of 4days? We manage to get things all right but I have to mention that the process was really tough! It wasn't easy to come out something out of 4days? Of course it wasn't just us alone, we have our peers to support us and people that were involved. Once again, thanks alot peeps! Without alll of you, none it could have happen. THANKS!

Friday, today, was another hectic day. Lucky the crop up wasn't that BAD. Otherwise, we would have died moments ago ._. it's really scary. Overall, both days was fairly well and the teachers were pleased. Job DONE, nothing to worry for now =)

Went for this course today, was kinda spastic though. We REALLY had a nice chat over there huh. Right? LOL! Those people huh....don't think no one will know! I will expose one day! hehe! Tomorrow is Love-Our-Community-Day and I guess it's just a yearly event. Nothing much to expect, neither is there much to worry for.

I guess this is as much I want to mention. Meanwhile, enjoy pictures taken throughout the week =)

me and Gerldine =)
ME''Rach''Tish
Training dept except for...
spastic-ness =)
me and hermen =] (he rock-ed)
finally, we just <3>

where were you when I needed you the most 6:28 AM
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Monday, June 25, 2007

Life is going to be tougher as day passes by... and I know this is not going to be an easy task... School life is not going to be as carefree as ever now. Things are slowly changing and mutating. Whether the board will be successful or not, this batch is a very i-m-p-o-r-t-a-n-t. I really mean important. Sec 3s out there, it's really important to have the correct attitude. I can't do much if you people cannot think it the right way. No offence but let me out this straight, have that level of thinking, do what is correct and not because you are being forced to do so.

I really NEED the correct attitudes of our batch, you can't expect me to work with people that are not having the correct mindset. Bit by bit, slowly at a time. Things will turn out for the better, correct the mindset. Soon you will realize that you will take up more roles and at the end, you are one of the manys that created a legacy in the board's history. It's never too late to change your mindset and attitude. In life, it's not the destination that matters it's the process that we enjoyed. Don't IF, we will be able to make a better board! Render your strenght and give whatever you can, there must be something you can do. Start it right by having the correct mindset and thus slowly getting respect from your peers and of course your juniors.

I really NEED you guys to do things correctly, this is very i-m-p-o-r-t-a-n-t. PLEASE, take it as I beg you!!!!! Change your thinking!!!!! Correct the mindset and attitude! From there, we can slowly proceed with legacy thingy thingy.

Thanks to all P.O.S, you are important of the importants! Don't let me down, neither youself. Reflect on this, however if you feel you are already good enough, improve! take care and smile more and always then. This is all I have to say, BYE people, post again soon <3

where were you when I needed you the most 5:48 AM
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Saturday, June 16, 2007

I shall blog about the past 6months. You might wanna ask what has happened for the past 6months? Be it for you or for myself, I'm pretty sure that you have been through alot. I can 101% sure that I have been through way farr more than you people. Lets re-call back what happened back in January shall we?

JANUARY
Okay, I guess this is the start of the new year, much to expect from yeah? Bringing a positive attitude for the upcoming year!! New teachers, new classmates, new classroom and also new subjects (argh!). Thats very very badd! What to do, new year, new surprises but at the same time new challenges ahh! Whatever the case, life still goes on yeah?

FEBURARY
1month has pass-ed and so how do you people enjoy-ed it? Wahah! You must be feeling sh!ty right? Teachers not good enough, you prefer last year's subject teachers or form-teachers right? See I told you! Some teachers, man, I just wonder how they can take us =X So fast got homework, complaining that need more time to bond right? LOL! Orientation, almost over soon =/ but what a wonderful experience! How I wish I could turn time back and enjoy the whole process again right? whee~

MARCH
AHA! This where common test are reaching and you guys probably just have to get used to the teaching methods and don't complain! Learn before you flunt your e-xams! 1week of rest but trust me, it doesn't makes a difference whether you have it or not right? Whole week have to attend lessons or CCA stuff. ARGH, what to do? Life still goes on because you can't do much about it anyway.

APRIL
You are sad when you get your results because you didn't score how you wanted things to be huh? FRET NOT! You still have your MYE to bring up your scores! CHIIONG CHIONG!!!!!! Otherwise you will lose out in your marks and there is no way you can get your test redone or retake yeah? Come on, do your best! MYE IS very important!!!!!!!! CANNOT AFFORD TO FLUNT ANYMORE LE!!!!!!!!!!

MAY
Aha, MYE is reaching! For those prefects, you are just stress-ed up with duties and also at the same time you have to work and study for e-xams! Sec3s taking over, have to learn to do things so on so forth~ MAN! THIS IS KILLING YOU! I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!! I WANT TO JUST FAIL THAT SUBJECT AHH!!!! You really cannot take the teacher's way of teaching and just want to play your games and who cares right? CCA wise, also have to take over soon, I can just die can?

JUNE
You will be super sad....for those who failed many subjects. For those who manage to put up your marks, good job done! Tears of joy and sadness just comes in point of the year. You hear news of teachers leaving, you can't bear them. You just want to stick their butts on your classroom chairs and don't ever let them leave the place! I MISS YOU!

Well I just did a brief summary of the past 6months, come to realize what did you actually did that was of your own joy? Your own pleasure? Did you do anything meaningful? Did you do anything that you regrett-ed very terribly? You wish to make amends for? ALL of this, is for you to know and for you to find out. Only you, yourself will know whether did you do all of this or not. You can't expect someone else to tell you what you did correct and what you did wrong right? I bet even your mother won't even know!

Something happened recently and I'm not shy or should I hide about. Look at the post before this, you'll see a damn freaking weird post that you wouldn't think it's me who wrote it. I can say that I was facing terrible problems. You can see that I get affected very easily. Now, I don't want to talk tooo much about it. I just want those who were involved in that THING. You were the ones that caused all of this. I don't want you guys just to SORRY me and forget everything just like that. This is a very important lesson, a lifelong lesson!! The reason why IT happens was because you people treat your friends shabbily! Too not the way you should be doing! I know some of you are not open-minded by nature and when it comes to talking heart-to-heart, you'll get very shy and don't wish to talk. Now let me tell you that you shouldn't be doing this! When I'm feeling down and have emotional breakdowns, don't because of your "shy-ness" and don't bother to ask AT ALL!! You think what? When a friend is really in need of help, bring yourself to talk to him, encourage him and make him feel that at least he has someone he can count on! Those you should know and the people whom I'm talking about. PLEASE! I BEG YOU! SORRY IS NOT ENOUGH!! Esp* when the person in need of help, is that type of person that counts on his friends to support him mentally in times of need.

For THAT THING, I hope that you have learnt and you must understand that you shouldn't treat people shabbily!!!!! TREAT ALL PEOPLE FAIRLY!!!! Don't because he/she helps you then you treat him/her better? Also, don't ever forget that your every single actions means alot to each and everyone of us. Don't neglect your friends or mistreat them. Best friends are not easy to come by and furthermore brothers/sisters are only once-in-a-lifetime! Cherish them and make them feel the best out of you!

For certain reasons, I didn't mention any names because I believe you know who are you and who I'm talking about. No names should be mention-ed because I believe it's not needed to mention your names.

There are some people that I want to thank still.
JASMINE
STELLA
JMO
ONE MORE SPECIAL PERSON-SOMEONE! WHOEVER YOU ARE, PLEASE READ MY TAG AND ANSWER MY QUESTION! It was because of them that I am kinda back to normal. ONCE AGAIN THANKS ALOT THE 4 OF YOU!!!!! I want to find out someone who are you, I'm lost who are you!!!!!!

Thanks to all Pillars Of Strength! I've yet to make myself believe my P.O.S but I'm giving you people 2nd chance! Cherish it please!!!! take care and smile more and always people! thats all, more pics will come soon when I can post sarawak!!!=) tatas~

where were you when I needed you the most 12:24 PM
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Thursday, June 14, 2007

I don't know why but I really don't wish to live anymore. My family is like sh!t, my friends don't seem to know and don't even care for me! How should I ever face the future. I have counting myself on my own for so many years! Whenver I feel terrible, here and there if I'm lucky, I can find someone to talk to. If not, I will have to count on myself. I don't anyone will EVER understand this feeling. Since I was 4years old, I have already started to think why my parents can't be there for me. WHY, WHY MUST MY LIFE BE LIKE THIS?

Most of you out there must be thinking, "Aiya, who also can feel." If you think it's easy to understand, TELL ME! TELL ME WHAT WILL YOU DO? SINCE A AGE OF 4, you are going to school alone, after school you see all the lucky childrens being fetched by their parents. While you only get fetched by your maid. You have to tolerate all this. You cannot seem to do anything much about it, only thinking about it everyday. Day and night, you can only think but no answers. AGE OF 4? YOU guys out there must be thinking that I am lying. Think as you may, I really don't know if you want to believe me or not. Your choice.

You have never ver felt the feeling of being loved by your true, biological parents. Before you can even feel, they already have to seperated because of money problems. I really don't know why am I saying this, you probably thinkg I am trying to get pity from you. GO AHEAD, LAUGH ALL YOU WANT. COME SPAM MY BLOG SAY THAT I AM G@Y OR LESBIAN OR SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT. COME ON PEOPLE, I KNOW MANY OF YOU OUT THERE LIKE TO JUDGE ME RIGHT? COME , I AM GIVING YOU THE CHANCE TO SCOLD ME. COME COME, I AM SO HAPPPPPY TO HEAR ALL OF THIS. YOU GUYS LOVE TO JUDGE ME RIGHT? COME SCOLD ME SISI, AH GUA, G@y, NOT BOY, NOT MAN! COME, I AM SICK AND TIRED BUT SINCE YOU LOVE SAYING SO MUCH, COME! I WILL BE WAITING FOR THE TAG BOARD TO BE FILLED WITH ALL OF THIS COMMENTS.

WHATEVER THE CASE, THANKS TO ALL MY PILLARS OF STRENGTH, OH, I JUST FORGOT THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO ARE MY TRUE FRIENDS. HAHA SO COOL RIGHT?

where were you when I needed you the most 7:25 AM
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Friday, June 08, 2007

NOW WHAT? I can't put the pics into my com ._.

Damn, I can't insert all the pics I took from the workshop. ALL THANKS TO THE USB port of my freaking lousy com -.- It seems that I can't read the wire and TADA. No pics for the post. -_-

The whole day camp ROCK-ed <3 school =").">

We had SERIOUS work during the first half of the day and after lunch, when everyone was all replenished, we continued with our games =D There were 4stations in total and for my stations, I was the only one but fear not! Nitish, I knew that you had no choice.

I took spastic photos but I can't get them yet. Sarawak and workshop's photos will all come together in a post :)

1more funny thing or I should say it's VERY scary. My wallet was not with me for 6hours+ and I finally found it at the parade square at around 9PM in school -.- I was really freaking myself out but lucky Rachel was with me to FIND =)

THANKS all Pillars Of Strength and I guess this is all that I want to say and I shall come out with more spas photos in my next post :) take care and smile more and always!!!!!!! BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

taken during the sarawak. my HP pics before the port was spoilt -_-

where were you when I needed you the most 8:00 PM
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Thursday, June 07, 2007

OH CRAP !!

I didn't blog about sarawak'o7 ._.

You know, I can't blog much about sarawak because my camera got some sh!tty problems and I can't seem to get the pics into my com. For now I shall just have to just put in some random pics from the pics I took from my handphone.

It was really a FUN and enriching experience. No doubt it wasn't what I wanted it to be but....afterall it was meaningful =) 5days 4nights were quickly gone as soon as we knew it. Once again, the feeling of going back to sarawak. Don't you people have those kind of feeling when you finish a camp and when you recall what happened, you just can't help but wanting to go back to the start of camp again to experience the same thing over again LOL!

Tomorrow there is a 1day camp. Prefects Workshop/Seminar. If I got it correct. Nevertheless, much to look forward because I'm gonna make sure you people will get SUPER wet at my station wahahah =D You know, things get REAL hectic when the people start to rebel =X

Yiwei's was suppose to have his eye operation today but he didn't. Heard that he had a bad cough and couldn't do it today. jiayous! YIWEI!!!!! I know you can survive the holidays after your operation, believe in yourself. We WILL pay a visit to you. GET WELL! That is after your operation. Mean while, all of you please do take care of yourselfs as it's kiinnda easy to fall ILL now, at this point of time >.<

I guess this is all that I want to mention about. Looking forward for the workshop and hope that we will have tons of fun =D Thanks to all P.O.S, we'll have lots of fun tomorrow. :) Thanks alot people for readng and here are some random pics =D take care and BYYeeee

spastic jo`ME`denise =)))

tish`jo`ME wahahaha.

took this pic because there is Jonathan xD. Found in popular.

where were you when I needed you the most 7:04 AM
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